Have you ever done a health reset? It's a great way to kickstart your journey into a healthy lifestyle, and you might also become more aware of how you rely on certain foods or alcohol to relax, soothe or even numb yourself.
For me, my health is my number one focus; the weight loss is an indicator I'm eating right for my body at this time. The weight loss IS a motivator for sure, but it is not my main focus...it is mainly a sign I'm moving towards optimal health.
I deeply believe that changing from a less-than-stellar lifestyle to a healthy lifestyle takes practice until you get it right. I won't give up; I'll keep trying.